E - Something Special, Yet Painful!
Episode 13 of 30
Have you ever pursued something that looked like a success, at first yet became a failure? (failure, in the sense of human reasoning).
Something I didn't mention earlier was that before I was selected to be part of the youth executives, I was already in the process of applying to nursing school. My intention to study nursing came up while I was in Egypt, but I didn't have the opportunity because I was already doing Accounting. I was super good at calculation, so the teenager in me gravitated towards calculating money lol! just joking (more of like, family decision).
Anyways, while applying to nursing school, I was the most gently spoken person. I was always very polite to myself and even to God, because I was expecting something that I really wanted to do!. At first, I was scared I wouldn't get admission as I met the exact criteria they wanted. But God showed up in an unusual way!
In the process of waiting for me to be selected, I was already anticipating all these wonderful things I would do when I am finally a nurse and stuff like that. I was eagerly waiting and expectant, plus the fact that I love children so dearly, and I was looking forward to becoming a Paediatric (missionary) Nurse. But God’s plan was different from mine! His plan for me was beautifully perfect that I was blind to the spiritual and pursuing the physical.
As I mentioned in the previous episode, becoming the youth executive in 2018 turned out to be an unexpected form of discipleship. I recall praying in the shower, asking God to help me deepen my understanding of Him so that I could feel secured in His plans for my life. I was reassured immediately by the Holy Spirit that God would guide me, though not necessarily in the way that I imagined.
I expected a straightforward path, but rather God's first BIG assignment for me was to serve as a Youth President. God was preparing me in a way I had not foreseen. While I was holding onto my own vision and will of becoming a missionary nurse, God was writing a story much deeper than my shallow vision.
Sometimes, our stories pause just as clarity begins. God stories evolve when we pause our desires for His Will!
TBC... in episode 14
This is inspiring! Great work.
ReplyDeleteGod’s way most times is not our way. Nobody prays to go through the toughest route, we all want that smooth sailing which is not bad, but until gold passed through the fire, it cannot glitter. But, no matter what our journey looks like, we are not alone. Jesus said he will not leave us comfortless and he will be with us till the end of the world. With Jesus you can be sure of your glorious ending.
ReplyDeleteThis is really touching.
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